hi
just wanna share something today . something that i might will not share with others.
all this time i fall in love with only one person.its hard to said when he already left me . he passed away 4 years ago.
bukan senang sebenarnya nak menulis tentang dia. tentang orang yang dah pergi. when we actually can't create anything new about him and just keep repeating the same memories with him. aku jenis yang cepat lupa tentang sesuatu. so at the end, kenangan tu pudar.then every night i wish i will dream about him so the new memory will be created.
i miss him. lately aku rasa sakit. makin sakit hari demi hari. aku pernah menulis dulu tentang dia. aku tulis macam mana kalau setahun dua akan datang ( dari tarikh dia pergi) aku rindu kan dia?tak mungkin aku akan korek tanah kubur dia. sekarang aku dah faham. sakit tak terluah. semua serba tak kena.i wish you were here sayang so i could tell you all hard times that i've through. i'm standing by my own. i dedicate all this hard work for you. i wish can get you back. so orang dapat tumpang bahu kamu. so that orang akan pegang kamu and i will not let you go . i wish that i will be happier than before but i can't . i truly love you.can you please ask God oce to come back just for me? orang tak akan minta lebih. i feel lonely. i felt bad.
masa kenal dia,aku kisahkan orang. aku jaga hati orang. since dia pergi,aku mcm heartless. jadi lantakkan semua orang. jadi heartless.kalau aku bunuh orang pun, mungkin aku x rasa bersalah
agaknya. this effect me alot . i'm hurt. people keep hurting me and i also hurting ma self. at the end of the day, i will be the one who keep repeating bout memories. the one who live in her own world,
BAHAGIA ITU ADALAH SATU KETENANGAN,
So bersyukur on small matters.
No comments:
Post a Comment